Before you read this very long and gigantic post… just know that there are a lot of pictures and a lot of text. I have been seriously blog deprived lately… so I made up for it 🙂
These last few weeks have flown by, I mean literally in the blink of an eye. I feel like just yesterday it was spring break. Leading me to wonder when the last time I posted on here was… a few weeks have gone by since my last post 🙂 Thank goodness my best friend and I can teamtag these posts!
SOOOOO much has happened in the past few weeks, and typically I post about recipes, or my run, or something healthy… but this post is purely about life.
So since I’ve last blogged, I have finished seeing clients, I completed my last classes as a student, I hosted an induction ceremony, and I graduated with my masters. It all happened so fast though I feel like I only got to bask in the enjoyment of each celebration for a short period of time, before we were celebrating something else.
A big word in the social work field that I have come to have a love/hate relationship with is “Termination”. In therapy, termination is inevitable… especially as a student. You graciously talk about in the initial assessment with your clients as you talk about the projectory of your therapeutic relationship and what it is going to look like. Second semester you bring it up again, just lightly though considering you still have 4-5 months of work left. Then before I knew it, it was two weeks away and I had already been preparing them for it for three weeks or so. I realized though during my last week with my clients, I had not prepared myself at all for termination. I don’t just mean termination with my clients, but termination with everything. Termination with myself as a college student, termination with a lifestyle that I have come to love for the past six years, and termination with so many amazing people in my program that I have spent every week with for the past two years. In this field, self care is so important, but it honestly is the last thing on all of our minds when it comes to our clients.
So these last few weeks were bittersweet. I had to say goodbye to clients that I have been working with for over a year, who have accomplished so many goals and who have turned their lives around, all on their own. It’s crazy to me in the last session as they talk about their therapeutic journey and how therapy and our work together has changed their lives, because every single one of my clients has impacted me in one way or another, and they do not even realize it. All of them had so many struggles, yet all of them overcame and were so resilient, and I was blessed to be a part of that journey, it is truly a beautiful thing. I digress.
So after saying goodbye to clients, I had to say goodbye to life as a student, to amazing friends and to professors who have inspired and impacted me in so many ways. Thankfully I had some events to keep me sane during the last two weeks, and that allowed me to hold on to being a student just for a little longer 🙂
Since I was president of my National Honor Society, I spent really the last semester with the other officers planning our induction ceremony. It is a small but intimate ceremony where we get to induct all of the members who met the grade requirements, and who also spent the last year performing service projects. It turned out amazing and I was so grateful to have such amazing officers at my side. Also huge shout out to my boyfriend who I voluntold to be the photographer for the event 🙂
Plus I had my wonderful support system there 🙂
All in all everything turned out amazing! That weekend too Jordan and I celebrated my going to the MSU Spring football game. We have some good friends who bought a suite for the game, and who were kind enough to invite us to share it with them. Then we had my program’s bar crawl which was a blast! It was nice to have a night out with everyone from the program, especially those that I haven’t had classes with this year or that I haven’t seen since orientation. Even though we have a small program, it’s still fairly large in comparison to other programs! This picture really doesn’t capture how many people were there still!
I’ve made some amazing friends in this program, and ones that I can see lasting a lifetime. So terminating with some of them, I knew was going to be extremely hard… I’m really starting to lean more on the “hate” portion of my relationship with this word. But thank goodness we all had graduation left! I still worked this week, and really the whole graduation day just crept up on me. The day was crummy as far as weather goes, so I really didn’t get many good shots. Jordan and I are heading out to campus later this week to get some better pictures, but I did get to capture my day with those that I love 🙂
Officially Angela Wojcik, MSW 🙂
Then I ended the day right by celebrating with some carb-loading… I mean I did have to run 20 miles the day after my graduation… I think I deserved it…
If you can’t tell…. I’m a photoholic 🙂 Anyways… all in all it was an amazing day! I have lots more photos, but am limited to what I can post right now since I’m back home for the weekend. But if this week has taught me anything, it’s that even though termination is extremely difficult at times, it’s a beautiful thing. It shows that one chapter has ended, but that a new one is beginning. For my clients, it shows that they have made amazing progress and are ready to to use what they’ve learned in therapy in their real lives, and that they are extremely capable of doing so. I have full faith that they are all going to continue to do amazing work! For me, it means that I have made some amazing friendships and some amazing connections in this program, and even though are time together in the MSW world is done… our time together in each other’s lives are not. For myself, it means that I can officially close the door to an amazing chapter, one that was full of struggles, triumphs, memories and challenges… all of which led me to a beautiful place in life. I have an amazing support system, I have gained some wonderful and amazing friendships, I had two years of wonderful field placements that provided me with experience that I know with allow me to be successful in life, and I have an amazing man by my side as I close this door and we open another. In this chapter, I look forward to having more time to spend with those I care about, and spending more time doing things that I love. I love being a student, and I love challenging myself intellectually, adademically, and critically, but I also love losing myself in things that require none of that. I haven’t had time to do that lately, and I’m looking forward to doing it a lot more. I’m not sure how I’ll adjust to not having a busy schedule full of work, classes internships, volunteering, homework, and training…. but I think I’ll enjoy it 🙂 At least for a little bit… until I find other things to fill my schedule with! I think it’s safe to say my new favorite word… is done 🙂 Huge shout out to everyone for all the love and support, it means more than you’ll ever know and I wouldn’t be where I am today without it!
Speaking of support… my coworkers are amazing. They threw together a surprise graduation party for me. Ordered a fancy cake and made it a soup and salad bar! It’s amazing how supportive they all are, even with my healthy lifestyle 🙂 Honestly they rock. Thank goodness I don’t have to terminate with them yet as I’m still waiting to find a job… but I know termination with them will be extremely hard. Right now I’m just going to cherish the time I have with them!
Oh yeah…btw….I am now in the taper portion of my training. I hit the 20 mile mark twice, call me crazy but I think I needed it. I need to know I can get past the wall, especially on race day. My first 20 mile run went amazing!!
My 20 mile run this weekend? Not so hot. I still had a 9:54 pace, but I felt like crap and for the first time I had to stop at mile 18 to take a little walking break. I tried the GU chomps… gross. I learned my body does not like those, nor does it not like when I don’t drink at least 5-6 bottles of water the day before my long run. See…. I’m at the tail end of my training and I’m still learning about my body in relation to running and fueling and all that good stuff! But I also think I need to start encorporating more electrolytes into my body when I’m on these long runs. But I am excited that the next time I hit the 20 mile mark it will be at my race!!